Keep the Rubber-Side Down!

I look forward to writing every day and it's odd how doing so makes me feel better.  I remember as a kid that I threw out a diary I had started to keep because I knew my mother would find it and read it. Now, here I am writing down my thoughts for anyone to see and examine.  It was such a kick today to get a reply from a fellow blogger who also has Parkinson's.  We have a lot in common as far as our illness and our take on it.  It amuses me that our reaction to diagnosis was to get motorcycles.  When I found his site I also found comfort and inspiration.  I would be overjoyed if anyone were to find the same things here.

Me and my client, Linda on my Honda 750 Shadow 

A parkie driving a motorcycle doesn't sound like it would be a good thing but it's one of the best anti-depressants I've found. I'm a safe driver looking out for all of the road idiots everywhere.  I took the driving class at the local community college too.  I'm reliving some of the best times when I would get to ride on the back of my big brother's bike only this time it's better because I'm in control now.   So far so good!

What's Shaking?

Jan. 16, 2013

So I feel pretty sorry for myself today and thank goodness this doesn't happen very often or at least when it does, it's pretty short lived.  My bestie at work, my partner in crime (P.I.C.),  a beautiful and smart, loud and obnoxious, extremely wise for her age because she's been to re-hab, 24 year old snot, sees to it by giving me no slack and making darn sure I laugh along with her as she laughs at me.   I love her to death and she helps keep me almost sane.  Here's a sample of  our handiwork.

Anyway, I wasn't laughing today.  I cannot and will not ever be able to snatch a 35 pound kettlebell 100 times over my head in 5 minutes.  Most people don't even know what that means and not many people can do it either.  There are worse things in the world to be sure and I feel so stupid sometimes that I let stuff like this get to me.  The snatch test is a minimum requirement for an advanced kettlebell certification.  For those of you who are still wondering what the heck it is, this is a kettlebell.

A snatch is an overhead movement that requires strength, stamina, and finesse.

Observe: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2o8gECEjU9U  

I actually sat in front of my poor boss today during a meeting and cried about this.  Mostly I cried because I think the rules shouldn't apply to me.  I've never won an Olympic medal or broke the tape in the Boston marathon but I've been able to accomplish most things I've set out to do.  I'm not bragging.  I get things done it's who I am.  I don't have any special innate abilities other than a strong will and the willingness to work hard.  The thing that makes me so bitter is that Parkinson's disease trumps all of that.  My body will not cooperate with me and it's only going to get worse.

Cheery thoughts huh?  I'm not always so whiny, I promise. Well, if you're still reading and you decide to come back to tomorrow I think I will have bucked up a bit by then and I can fill you in on some of the back story like:

• how I used to be 230 pounds 
• how I ran 2 marathons and why
• why the only good part of this is that everywhere I go I'm told I'm too young to have this disease and  to somebody pushing 40 I'll take what I can get
• how I love my job as a personal trainer so much that I'd still go to work the day after hitting the lottery
• why I got a motorcycle 
• how I can agree to anything ahead of time including a ski trip just for parkies - you know you'll want to hear about a bunch of spazzoids on a ski slope!  

This blog can't and won't be all about Parkinson's Disease.  I've got too much else to say to let this completely define me.